Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Intended Harm
Day 13 - Genesis 50:15-26 & Job 1:1-15
Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”
Genesis 50:20 “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.”
Joseph, through God’s grace, was able to see past the evil in his brothers’ hearts when they sold him to the Egyptians and see the good God made happen. This is a hard thing to do and only with God’s help are we able to do this. When evil things happen to us, it is hard to know why or see any possible good being able to come from it. However, with God and time positive things can happen from the negative. When I was in college, something I held very dear to my heart was taken from my body. This evil event took a toll on me and I did not handle it with the best decisions or with God. I stepped away from every root and belief I had and blamed God. It took many bad decisions and lots of time for me to realize that God was still working on my heart and doing all He could and I would allow to turn this negative into a positive. He used many people in my life and many signs. Finally, I was AWAKEN and I was able to see the positive from the negative. It was only when I looked through God’s eyes I saw all the positive in myself that may not have been there without the negative. I do not believe God made the negative happen, but I believe God made the negative into a positive. A very important distinction! What positives have come from negatives in your life? Look closely with the eyes of God, you will see it!
Mourning Now v Mourning Then
Day 12 - Genesis 47-50:14
Genesis 50:3 “…And the Egyptians mourned for him seventy days.”
Genesis 50:3 “…And the Egyptians mourned for him seventy days.”
When Jacob died the family and Egyptians mourned for 70 days. Now I am not certain if that was standard back then or not, but it seemed expected and okay. Today if someone were to openly mourn for 70 days it would be “weird”. The mourner would be advised to “see” someone about it. Our places of work would surely frown at it. Where I work, we don’t even get bereavement days. Our PTO is suppose to cover deaths. Personally, I feel that is bull honky, but that is the accepted standard. Why are we expected to get over a major loss in a day or two? I don’t think a day or two is reasonable, however, I do feel there comes a point in time where looking at what has happened in the past should stop and forward movement should continue. When my grandpa died a few years ago, I thought I would never stop hurting, that my tear ducts would never dry, that I would never be happy doing the things I used to do with him. Well, that lasted for about a week or two then grandpa appeared in a dream, he was as I remember him as a child. Active, healthy, black rimmed glasses, work pants, and white shirt. He was happy, smiling, without diabetes and pain. He looked at me and said, “remember your smile is sunshine!” Something he use to say to me when I was a little girl before I would throw a tantrum or cry. I knew then that grandpa didn’t want me to cry for him anymore and I began to look forward. Now jump ahead about eleven months and grandpa came back to us. Let me explain. Grandpa donated his body to the University of Iowa, so the day after he died he was taken to Iowa City to the university. Side note: we saw grandpa the day he died and because the funeral home wasn’t expecting us, he didn’t have make up on or wasn’t “done up”. He was the least scary most real looking dead man I have ever seen. If he had his glasses on, he would have looked like he was napping. They put WAY too much make up on dead people. So when the university was done with grandpa, he was cremated and sent back to grandma. Just after I had truly begun to look forward and be at peace with grandpa not being on Earth anymore, it was like he died all over again. Although I will never forget that day, two things stand out in my mind that helped me get through it all. Grandma announced before we left the house to put the ashes in the ground “All I have to say is, he is not in there (pointing to the urn). He has been wherever he is going to be since last December.” The other moment was when my family was leaving the cemetery and I remember looking back at my sister. It was like we knew what each other were thinking and we both mouthed “I love you”. We love and miss you grandpa!
The Family Tree
Day 11 - Genesis 44-46
Genesis 46:8-25 “These are the names of the sons of Israel (Jacob and his descendants) who went to Egypt: …”
Genesis 46:8-25 “These are the names of the sons of Israel (Jacob and his descendants) who went to Egypt: …”
Throughout Genesis we have read the “family trees” of each male from Adam to Jacob. Why don’t we all take as much pride in our family trees? Why don’t we document it all for those to come after us? Back then, they not only documented the whos, but they documented the wheres. I mean it is great that we know our immediate relatives and sometimes two or three branches out, but what about beyond that? Have we become so focused on ourselves and those surrounding us that we don’t think to ask? Are we so busy look towards our own futures and where we are going that we don’t want to find out where we came from? I think next time I am with family I might ask a few questions, maybe start a family tree project sometime soon.
Men and Crying
Day 10 - Genesis 42-43
Genesis 43:30 “Deeply moved at the sight of his brother, Joseph hurried out and looked for a place to weep. He went into his private room and wept there.”
Genesis 43:30 “Deeply moved at the sight of his brother, Joseph hurried out and looked for a place to weep. He went into his private room and wept there.”
So Joseph wept. A man…wept! Why is it today so many feel that a man is not a man if he shows such emotion? Now in this verse Joseph left the room, but it was more because his brothers didn’t know it was him, than because he was embarrassed. So why was it okay for a man to show emotion and cry way back when, but today men are practically shunned if they cry. What happened over the years? When was the first man made to feel less of a man because he shed a tear? As a woman, I do not understand this. First, we women cry because of a Hallmark commercial, but that aside most women I know prefer a man unafraid to show emotion then a man who hides it all away. Why do men say to their sons “be a man, stop crying” when they are boys and they are hurting (physically or emotionally). I challenge any man reading this to embrace your emotions. Don’t feel less of a man because of your emotions. Tears do not make you less of a man; they make you a stronger man.
Dream Interpretations
Day 9 - Genesis 37-41 & 1 Chronicles 2:3-6 & 8
In this reading, there isn't really a verse or chapter that I am gong to highlight, but rather a couple. Joseph interprets three dreams in this reading as God's "voice". Joseph's interpretations were exactly right and he said it was God's interpretations. This got me to thinking about dreams. There are a bunch of dream interpretation books out there, people documenting what certain aspects of dreams mean. A bunch of speculation, to me. There are also those who say it is just your subconscious coming to life. A place for your deep desires, fears, and so on to be showcased. Some say they are memories. Some even say they are predictions of the future. But what if they were all wrong? What if it was still a way of God communicating with us. For many years God came to people in their dreams, what if He still is? After I write that I think about some of the dreams that I have had and I am pretty sure God wasn't there. But what if He was, what if the dream was just a way to get my attention? To draw me towards someone or something. To plant an idea in my head for later use. Speaking of which, I saw "Inception" last night, what if God was doing the inception? Maybe He is. There are many times where my dreams have become reality and because I felt I knew what would happen with each decision made I was able to decide correctly and positive things happened. So is it really that big of a stretch to think that dreams are still a way of God to communicate with us? I know the next time I have a dream I will be wondering, what He may have wanted me to get from it.
In this reading, there isn't really a verse or chapter that I am gong to highlight, but rather a couple. Joseph interprets three dreams in this reading as God's "voice". Joseph's interpretations were exactly right and he said it was God's interpretations. This got me to thinking about dreams. There are a bunch of dream interpretation books out there, people documenting what certain aspects of dreams mean. A bunch of speculation, to me. There are also those who say it is just your subconscious coming to life. A place for your deep desires, fears, and so on to be showcased. Some say they are memories. Some even say they are predictions of the future. But what if they were all wrong? What if it was still a way of God communicating with us. For many years God came to people in their dreams, what if He still is? After I write that I think about some of the dreams that I have had and I am pretty sure God wasn't there. But what if He was, what if the dream was just a way to get my attention? To draw me towards someone or something. To plant an idea in my head for later use. Speaking of which, I saw "Inception" last night, what if God was doing the inception? Maybe He is. There are many times where my dreams have become reality and because I felt I knew what would happen with each decision made I was able to decide correctly and positive things happened. So is it really that big of a stretch to think that dreams are still a way of God to communicate with us? I know the next time I have a dream I will be wondering, what He may have wanted me to get from it.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Women Creatures
Day 8 - Genesis 34-36 & 1 Chronicles 1:28-2:2 (8/26/10)
Genesis 24
So tonight I picked this chapter because all through Genesis women have been taken as wives in exchange for property (animals, riches, land, etc.). Women don't have much of a choice in the matter. Their fathers decide for them. Now I know this practice was in place for long after this time period, but it gets me thinking about womens' roles in todays society.
Note: I believe this journal entry may cause some negative uproar in my fellow females, but please keep an open mind and know I understand no two women are alike and that this is just one thought process of mine. :)
I think that women have got to be the most confusing and most indecisive creatures out there. After years of women before us fighting to get out of the kitchen and into the workplace, we sit today and get upset when men don't want to take care of us. I have to admitt that I use to be one of those women who wanted a career, wanted to be successful, wanted to be as good if not better then my male counterparts. Then I would get upset when a man would expect me to take care of myself, whether it be a meal on a date or emotionally or whatever. It took me a few years of dating to realize that although I don't want my father to pick my husband (however maybe he would do a better job then me at the rate I am going), I do want a man to be my man, to be my rock. I still believe that in a relationship men and women should be mostly equal, but I think society has made it difficult for girls to grow up as true stong women and boys to grow up to be men. Us women expect so much from men, yet we don't always allow them to be men. When I look back on my dating history I would get upset when someone I was trying to date wouldn't step up and be a man, but I recently realized I never allowed them to do what I wanted. To point out a few things: I wanted a man to pay for our meal on a date, but I would ask if he wanted me to get my portion. I wanted a man to initiate communication with me, but instead of giving him time to do so I would initiate the communication. I wanted a man to come up with date ideas, but I would always suggest things instead of giving him time to voice his ideas. Why do women do these things? Are we so sure that we can do anything that we try to be both the man and the woman in the relationship? Daily I pray and challenge myself to be a woman that will allow the man I will eventually have in my life to be the man I know he can be and the man I want and need in my life as a partner.
Genesis 24
So tonight I picked this chapter because all through Genesis women have been taken as wives in exchange for property (animals, riches, land, etc.). Women don't have much of a choice in the matter. Their fathers decide for them. Now I know this practice was in place for long after this time period, but it gets me thinking about womens' roles in todays society.
Note: I believe this journal entry may cause some negative uproar in my fellow females, but please keep an open mind and know I understand no two women are alike and that this is just one thought process of mine. :)
I think that women have got to be the most confusing and most indecisive creatures out there. After years of women before us fighting to get out of the kitchen and into the workplace, we sit today and get upset when men don't want to take care of us. I have to admitt that I use to be one of those women who wanted a career, wanted to be successful, wanted to be as good if not better then my male counterparts. Then I would get upset when a man would expect me to take care of myself, whether it be a meal on a date or emotionally or whatever. It took me a few years of dating to realize that although I don't want my father to pick my husband (however maybe he would do a better job then me at the rate I am going), I do want a man to be my man, to be my rock. I still believe that in a relationship men and women should be mostly equal, but I think society has made it difficult for girls to grow up as true stong women and boys to grow up to be men. Us women expect so much from men, yet we don't always allow them to be men. When I look back on my dating history I would get upset when someone I was trying to date wouldn't step up and be a man, but I recently realized I never allowed them to do what I wanted. To point out a few things: I wanted a man to pay for our meal on a date, but I would ask if he wanted me to get my portion. I wanted a man to initiate communication with me, but instead of giving him time to do so I would initiate the communication. I wanted a man to come up with date ideas, but I would always suggest things instead of giving him time to voice his ideas. Why do women do these things? Are we so sure that we can do anything that we try to be both the man and the woman in the relationship? Daily I pray and challenge myself to be a woman that will allow the man I will eventually have in my life to be the man I know he can be and the man I want and need in my life as a partner.
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